{"id":46,"date":"2025-02-22T23:34:49","date_gmt":"2025-02-22T23:34:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/?p=46"},"modified":"2025-04-20T20:38:35","modified_gmt":"2025-04-20T20:38:35","slug":"this-guy-is-guilty","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/en\/2025\/02\/22\/this-guy-is-guilty\/","title":{"rendered":"THIS GUY IS GUILTY"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I\u2019m a machine built to fuck myself over. A perfectionist piece of shit, a bastard who\u2019s never satisfied. Everything I do disgusts me. Everything I touch is an embarrassment. Art, words, ideas\u2026 trash before they\u2019re even born. I look at them and want to burn them. I show them and want to hide.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But that\u2019s enough.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019ve decided to betray myself. To put a bullet in the head of that fucking judge inside me. To stop listening to his voice. To ignore him. I don\u2019t need to feel worthy. I don\u2019t need to be ready. I just need to do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m going to create and spit it in the world\u2019s face. Not for ego. Not for validation. Not for applause. Just because. Because I fucking want to. Because if I don\u2019t, I\u2019ll explode.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No one I know is ever going to see this. I don\u2019t want it for them. This is for strangers, for no one, for everyone. I\u2019ll throw it out there without thinking, without mercy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/Ignorame-e1740267047378-2048x920.png\" alt=\"\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>Fuck fear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Fuck shame.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019ll do whatever the fuck I want.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Period.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m a machine built to fuck myself over. A perfectionist piece of shit, a bastard who\u2019s never satisfied. Everything I do disgusts me. Everything I touch is an embarrassment. Art, words, ideas\u2026 trash before they\u2019re even born. I look at them and want to burn them. I show them and want to hide. But that\u2019s&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":18,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-sin-categoria-en"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=46"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5770,"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46\/revisions\/5770"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/18"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=46"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=46"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/umbrosia.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=46"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}